Laser Eye Surgery Tomorrow
It’s been a couple of weeks since I’ve done a post on here and you guys might have noticed that I haven’t been active lately. The last few weeks, well the last two months actually has been an anxious waiting time for me to tell you the truth. I know I’ve already told some people this but I haven’t told exactly all of you. For those who haven’t heard, tomorrow, I’ll be getting laser eye surgery.to correct my vision.
So for those who don’t know, I don’t have perfect vision with my eyes. I have myopia commonly know as short-sightedness and it’s where I can see things close to me but in the far distance, I can’t see things not as clearly and my vision gets blurry. It’s actually really that bad that I have to get things really close to me so I’m able to see them.
I’ve had this problem probably since I was in pre-school or something, I don’t really remember since I was a kid. But what I do remember as a kid, I think I was watching something on TV and I notice I wasn’t able to see anything because my vision was all blurry. So freaking out as a little kid, I had no idea what was going on and I had to go to my mum to tell her that something’s wrong with my eyes and that’s when my mum knew I had short-sightedness. This was confirmed by one of the eye doctors and an optometrist I saw and as you know it, I had to wear prescribed glasses.
I’ve been planning to fix my short-sightedness for a while now but I’ve been waiting for the right time to do it. This year seems to be the best time to do it for me as I don’t have any major plans going on at the moment. I’ll also be doing a series of post on my laser eye surgery in the next couple of weeks and months to update people on my progress like what I did with my jaw surgery,
So the reason for this surgery is because I’m hoping to get perfect vision and don’t have to rely on wearing contact lens and my glasses all the time. People who wear contacts or glasses should all already know how I’m feeling but for those people who don’t, let me explain. Imagine wearing glasses or contact lens every day in your entire life. You need them in order to see because without them, you can’t see anything properly if you
When you wear contacts lens, you have to look after them by cleaning and disinfecting them before and after wearing them every morning and every night. Your eyes can get really tired and irritated after wearing contacts for a long time if you been out the whole day or go clubbing with your friends very late at night. If you like to travel like me, your contacts can get dry because of the dry air on the plane. It’s also easy to lose your contact lens as they are very small and also near transparent and they were certain times where I’ve lost mine.
With glasses, it’s easy to look after but sometimes it can be easy to easy to damage them and also easy to lose. There was one time I was looking for my glasses at home because I was going to crash at my best mate’s house for the night and after a long time looking for my glasses, I didn’t know where it was. It wasn’t until my mate told me I was wearing them that whole time and he didn’t know I was looking for my glasses.
Also, when you’re wearing glasses, sometimes your vision isn’t as clear like with contacts lens because the lens of the glasses doesn’t fully cover your eyes. Another thing I find annoying is your glasses can get fog up during the wet weather because of the rain. Oh and one more thing, whenever I go outside, I always like to wear sunnies when the sun is out because my eyes cannot cope with the bright light but it’s a different story with wearing glasses as you don’t have that protective lens. So that’s the life of wearing contact lens and glasses
I really hate to admit this but the first time I wore glasses, I wasn’t a big fan of it. Mainly because I look different to other people who didn’t have to wear glasses and I was so self-conscious about my appearance and being a shy kid and what other people thought of me. I also even got bullied by the older students in primary school because I was wearing glasses. You know those names people use like “four-eyes”, “nerd”, “dork”, yeah, I was called those names. Also being born with a congenital ptosis (droopy eyelid) which was really noticeable back when I was young, that didn’t really help me either.
I did get used to wearing glasses eventually and it took me a long time to accept that I had to wear glasses. Because without my glasses, I wouldn’t able to see properly. The bullying did get less thankfully as the bullies left after graduating from primary school to high school except it got worse when I found out that they went to the same high school as me. Most of you guys should already know this from reading my previous posts.
Halfway through Year 7 or the beginning of Year 8, I was able to start wearing contact lens. That gave me a real confidence boost because I didn’t have to worry about my glasses all the time and getting teased as well. I think that was the thing I was looking forward to the most from wearing contact lens and ever since then, I haven’t stopped wearing them since.
Now these days, I just wear my contact lens. I only wear my glasses whenever I’m not wearing my contacts like at night time or when my eyes get really tired. For some reason, I still get self-conscious wearing glasses whenever I go out in public like hanging out with friends or family. Maybe because I still have that little bit of fear of being judged since I was young.
I feel like with all the bullying I had to go through, I’m still scarred from it which I know it sounds so silly as this was a long time ago. This is also the first time talking to you guys about it which is why it’s so hard to write about it but I feel like I need to. Anyway, I don’t want this post to be all sad and stuff because I want this post to be positive and I’m much better now than there where I was.
Okay, the type of surgery I’ll be having is called SMILE (Small-Incision Lenticule Extraction) surgery which apparently it’s the latest technology for laser eye surgery. I have never heard of this before until I saw my eye surgeon and I’m sure most people haven’t heard of this surgery either except for those who’s had this before.
When people go for laser eye surgery, usually they have the LASIK (Laser in Situ Keratomileusis) which is the most common one people go for. There are also other methods like the PRK (Photorefractive Keratectomy) or ASLA (advanced Surface Laser) which is more the advanced PRK from my understanding and correct me if I’m wrong as I’m not the expert here. I don’t want to confuse you guys.
The difference between the one I’m having and the most common one people have is the recovery time and how less invasive the SMILE procedure is. I will explain the procedure more in detail in my next post after I had my surgery.
This laser eye surgery is yet another surgery (which will be my eighth one actually) and another hurdle I have to go through in my life. Some of you guys know, I hate surgeries because it always scares me but thankfully, it’s not as major as my last surgery I had four years ago with my orthognathic surgery (aka jaw surgery). I mean this surgery is still big but it will be a really quick one in terms of duration and recovery time.
I’m very very anxious at the moment and I know I shouldn’t be THAT anxious but having anxiety since I was a kid, I can’t really help it. At the same time tho, I am excited that if the surgery goes all well, I’m able to have perfect vision or have it as near as perfect vision. People who I have talked to who’s done laser eye surgery or knows other people who’ve done it, all of them have said to me that it has changed their life and they were amazed how they are able to see things clearly now. No more need for contact lens or glasses and that really inspires me.
I think the thing that terrifies me the most is being awake during surgery because with all the previous surgeries I’ve had, I was under general anesthesia. I know they will give you eye drops to numb your eyes but this will be an entirely different experience for me. I haven’t been this anxious since my jaw surgery. Of course, all of the anticipation and the wait for tomorrow doesn’t help either but I know I’m in good hands.
Hopefully, everything goes well tomorrow and will be like my jaw surgery. Life Changing! I don’t know when my next post will be up on here depending on how tired I am and also how I’m going with the recovery. Hopefully not too long and sorry it took me ages to get this post up. I’ve just been trying to take it easy because of my anxiety but thank you guys for your amazing support and understanding! I really appreciated especially with what I’m going through at the moment. I will also let you all know how my surgery goes and what the experience was like for those who are thinking of having laser eye surgery.
You guys are awesome! Be random but stay safe! ^_^